I don’t fit in. How ’bout you?

Posted September 28, 2011 by Paula in My Life / 2 Comments

A while back Annabel at Get in the Hot Spot wrote an article about ways she doesn’t fit in. She also challenged other bloggers to write about ways that they don’t fit in, and I am finally taking her up on that challenge. Here goes…

I was home-schooled.
Being home-schooled made me different, not in bad way, but still different. When my friends talk about high school and the people they knew, how they were picked on, the good times or the bad, I can’t relate. I don’t share those experiences, and a part of me will always feel like I’m on the outside looking in. I don’t regret being home-schooled, but I do wish I had some of those typical high school experiences that it seems like everyone else has had. Except for maybe the being picked on part. 😛

I am shy and socially awkward.
I don’t blame home-schooling for this, though it certainly didn’t help. But I was shy and awkward before we started home-schooling. I don’t feel bad about being this way, it just the way I am and lots of people are the same. But in my group of friends, I am the only one you would classify as shy and awkward. (My Sister also considers herself to be awkward, but I think I take it to a whole new level!)

I am not timid.
Being shy and being timid are two completely different things. And I am not timid! And I hate when people say that I am, because they are confusing my shyness for timidity. So not cool! I will fight for what I think is right and I will stand up for what I believe in. I just find it hard to talk to people I don’t know. 🙂

I don’t like football.
I’m from Tennessee, home of the Titans and the UT Vols. Everyone here loves football! Except me. I’ve been to a couple UT Games, mostly just to say that I had been to one. It was a cool experience being part of such a large crowd, but I really had no idea what was going on in the game. If everyone around me cheered, I cheered. If they booed, I booed. All I learned from going to these games is that football isn’t for me. 🙂

I am awesome.
Michael, one of my managers, often says, “You don’t have to tell Paula how awesome she is, she already knows!” Basically, I just know what I am good at, and I’m not afraid to own that. 🙂 If you are good at something, it’s okay to know it and say it. I don’t understand why people don’t do this more often. I’m not saying to brag about yourself, there is a difference between having confidence and being a braggart, ya know?

I am really hard on myself.
My standards for myself are very high. I have to be the best. Always. And I am hard on myself when I don’t think I’ve met my standards. This is part of why I am so good at my job, but it’s not an easy way to live.

I’m really competitive.
Which I’m sure doesn’t come as big surprise after my last statement. 🙂 I was such a sore loser when I was a kid! I remember throwing a board game at my sister when she beat me. lol Now that I am older, I’m not as bad, but I still hate to lose.

I’m very blunt.
Sometimes that can come across as rude, and I certainly don’t mean to be, I just don’t think! Whatever pops into my head comes out my mouth. I’m often told that I say what others were thinking, but just didn’t want to say. I’m not sure that’s a good thing. lol

I don’t care if people like me.
There are some people whose good opinion I am glad to have, but most people, I don’t care. I know how I am and that I’m not always easy to be around, so I’ve come to accept the fact that not everyone is going to like me. That’s just life. 🙂

I try to treat everyone the same.
I may not care if people like me, but I don’t believe in being mean either. I am a supervisor at work and I always try to be fair and treat everyone the same. It’s just part of my Aquarius nature. 🙂

I don’t like naps.
My philosophy is that I don’t want to waste my time away from work sleeping. 🙂 If I’m taking a nap, it’s because I don’t feel good.

I hate drama.
Some people seem to thrive on it, and I just don’t understand. Give me a simple, drama-free life please!

I’ve had the same group of friends since I was 17.
It is very rare, I think, for people to stay so close for so long, but the eight of us have been friends for 15 years.

I want to see the world.
I grew up and still live in a small town. For most of the women here, getting married right out of high school and having several kids before they turn 25 is the norm. There’s nothing wrong with that, but I wanted to see the world. That was more important to me than getting married and having kids. That’s a thought process that definitely makes me stand out in this little town. 🙂

I don’t wear make-up.
Well, I rarely wear make-up. I am actually planning an article on this topic, so I won’t go into all the details right now. But I will say that there is more to it than the “I’m just too lazy” reason I give most people.

I’d rather read than go to a party.
Not always, but there have been times I’ve turned down going out to stay home and read. 🙂

I’m not sure if I want kids.
I’ve haven’t given up on Mr. Right, and I do hope to get married someday, but I don’t know about the kids part. I look at our world and I don’t know that I want to bring children into a world like this. And honestly, I just don’t know that I want to be a mom. It’s not for everyone, ya know?

Okay, I think that is enough about me for now! I want to hear about you! Tell about the ways that you don’t fit in. What makes you different? You can let me know in the comments or you can take Annabel up on her challenge and write a blog post about it. Can’t wait to hear what you have to say!

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